holy freak!

Seriously........ I can't believe my last post was almost a year ago.  Holy Freak!  But life is good and i'm feeling blessed.  More blessed than ever.  I am at a better job, full time, with benefits and i'm doing more than just glorified babysitting.
That being said, being more involved also means that it hurts more when the clients go back out.  And it seems that where i'm working now, more people are going back out than at my previous place of employment.  But as far as me feeling like I fit in, something i've always felt like I didn't do very well, i'm pleased to say that I do feel that way here.  I've been here for almost 3 months.... that yucky probation period is almost over with.  Whew.  Sure will be glad to have that over with.

My first grandchild arrived in August and omg, what a total blast that is....... Little Cooper James arrived with a slight smile and very little noise.... He's been just a wonderful baby and given his mommy and daddy some rest.  I have watched with AWE how my son has risen to the occasion of being a father and how he is a partner to Cooper's mother, +Jamie Heenan.  I wish I could take credit for his parenting skills, but I don't think he learned how to be such a good parent from me.... more likely  , he learned how NOT to be a parent from me... ugh, terrible thought huh?  But it's probably true.  Oh well, I can say this, I have seen with my own eyes how I don't want to grandparent my grandkids.... so perhaps I'll be able to teach him how to do that.... I am just so damn proud of Tucker I can't stand it sometimes.  He's found a lovely girl to spend his life with and I know that Chris is just as pleased as I am with his choice.  Not only is she delightful, her family is pretty awesome too.  This is going to be our first Christmas with the little guy, and oh what fun it will be.
I don't know why I'm awake right now.  It's almost 3 a.m and i'm awake for some ungodly reason.  I just found out that my little Carly Rose didn't win X Factor and i'm indignant .... The cowboy won and i'm sorry, he just shouldn't have....  I don't care that he's the best husband ever, and that he gave up his career when he got married to support his family and blah blah blah, HE WASN'T BETTER THAN CARLY ROSE. But oh well, her life will never be the same.  She is going to be huge... Celine Dion huge.  You watch.  That little girl is going to be a super star.  Ha.  Every time I hear the word super star, I think of Molly Shannon and her funny catholic school girl character Katherine Gallagher.  That was some funny stuff.  Carly Rose.... you are amazing.  Please don't let the pitfalls of super stardom take you away from us.... God gave you this gift, please accept the blessing in a way worthy of the gift.
I wish I knew better what I was doing with this damn blog.... it's pretty pathetic that I have only 1 stupid follower... oh Tez......... +terriglynn I love you and I don't mean that YOU are stupid..... I just mean my blog must be stupid and only someone who truly loves me for my silly ways, would even want to be a follower........ however, big news of last month is that Vino Allen is a follower of mine on Twitter........... pretty big shit there folks.  Considering too that I only have 6 other's besides him!!!
Goodnight folks.  Super giant, big honkin, happy love to y'all

Goosh

plop, plop, fizz, fizz.....

Oh what a freakin relief it is.  Or not.  So yea, my kidneys have been giving me such grief these past couple of days.  I pretty much don't feel like doing anything but laying in bed.  But then I get to work and somehow my mind gets taken away from the discomfort and I get all wrapped up in the comings and goings at the Heritage House.  It's so funny how God knows what is best for you even when you don't.  I was so disappointed when I lost my job at Foley House... thought i'd never like Heritage House as much as Foley.  Boy was I wrong.  God knew this place was a better fit for me.  My co workers are just awesome.  I never felt as though I fit in at the other place.  They were very cliquey.  Even one co worker who I thought was close with me... when her husband died, she didn't even contact me so I could come and pay my respects.  So strange. 
But i'm learning so much here .... i've finished school and believe it or not, i'm learning more by being hands on than any day of school.  And i've never been happier.  These women are not only my co workers, but a few of them are my friends.  What a blessing that is.  And interestingly enough, the clients are just as wonderful as the ones from Foley House.  Women in recovery ... most of them, anyway, are just plain amazing. 
This year has truly been the best year of my life.... Don't get me wrong, getting back together with Chris was wonderful and having my kids was amazing.... but this last year, finishing school and getting this new job... it's just been so fulfilling.  God keeps blessing me and i'm so pleased.  Someone told me that God is blessing me because i've been obedient.  And the truth is, I have been.  I've been doing the right thing most of the time and when I don't, I end up fixing it and making it right.  I suppose God IS pleased with me. 
And now... i've got the biggest secret in the world .... and i've never been real good at keeping them.  Ha, just ask Julie or Kim.... they'll tell you I was a sucky secret keeper.  I got better once Laura and I were friends... but anyway, yea, a big ol secret that i'm so damn excited about.  And one I am not allowed to talk about yet.  But y'all will know eventually!!!  Toodles